I needed to get away fast! It would take a lot more time for me to achieve enough power to oppose Them. A whole new universe in a distant corner of the Whole...
 Too much... Everything is so wrong... what?
 Knocking...

Chapter one: Primum mobile

 "Get up or you'll be late for your club's meeting!" That was my roommate Lore. Actually Lore is only her nickname but I don't know her real name - she never tells. 
 "Rough night?" Lore asked me when I finally got to the kitchen.
"Ughh..." was all I could manage.
"That dream again?" I nodded my head and immediately a sharp pain ran through it.
"This time it was a bit clearer, but you woke me before I could begin to comprehend the meaning of it all."
"Sorry! Well I got to go now or I'll be late for my club's meeting. Bye now, and don't forget that it is your turn to cook tonight."
"Riiiiiiiiigth... bye!"
 After seeing her off I decided to leave house a bit early and take the scenic route to university because this was the first day that the sun was finally out of the clouds in a long time. I hoped that the walk would cheer me up a little but deep inside I knew that that was useless.

    *  *  *

 I guess I should be happy but that's the last thing I am. For the past several years I've felt like this whole world is something that I cannot be a part of. I shouldn't be complaining though. I have good parents that are supporting me now that I am living on campus. I am studying at a good university and I don't have many problems. But my life is empty. Most of the time I feel I could cry over an existence that I am not experiencing, existence that is supposed to be mine but cannot be achieved in this world.

    *  *  *

 The club's meeting was about to start when I finally arrived at the university and by the looks of the other members' faces I was the main topic today. Not the most comforting thought might I add...
 "Oi, Ryu! You seem awfully gloomy for such a lovely day!"
 "Not that I don't have a reason for it."
 "Right... Well then I guess you already know that you are the star of the next freestyle motocross competition."
 "Great! Whatever happened to Watanabe?"
 "He's in a hospital recovering from a trauma he got in the last practice run."
 "Now that's inspiring!"
 "Awww, c'mon! Your victory will be a bastion of hope for recognition from others and it will make other university's hopes fall like a house of cards!"
 "Enough of your elaborate metaphors Kate! I feel bad as it is."
 "Whatever! So, shall we go practice a little?"
 "Like I had a choice..."
 "Don't be such a sore-puss; after this is over I just might share with you the new Cowboy Bebop manga I just bought..."
 "It is out already? Well then I guess I'm your man."
 "Hehe, I know of all your weak spots, and that means that from this day on you shall be my slave!"
 What can I say - Japanese animation is my weakness.

    *  *  *

 On the way to the damn place where I will be risking my life to make some crazy stunts for the next few hours Kate was babbling some nonsense that I didn't pay much attention to for all my thoughts were concentrated only on the task at hand so I didn't notice the strange things that were happening all around me.
 Only when Kate's voice suddenly became high-pitched I turned my attention to her. She seemed to be normal but it was the empty stare or rather the fact that her pupils seemed to become emptier - a splash of grey with nothing in them except the color. The air seemed to thicken around me and everything seemed to become more colorful. That was the last thing I remembered before passing out.

    *  *  *

 I opened my eyes and saw an unfamiliar ceiling. It was white, but not quite - the white seemed like it was not real. I looked around and for a moment considered to loose my mind and start running around and screaming - all of the surroundings were not real! Everything seemed like it was taken from an anime! But then I understood that it all must be a dream and decided to enjoy it while it lasted. I reached for the call button and pressed it a few times. In a moment in came a very beautiful young girl. Very nice figure, blue eyes, dark-golden hair, and the most beautiful part - she was animated. 
 "Please tell me that I have died and that this is Heaven," Was all I could come up with.
 "Don't be foolish Ryu, this is the hospital to witch you were delivered after you passed out. And don't think you were original - you are not the first person to call me an Angel!"
 "Well then I must be the first person to mean it. And besides, I really did feel like in heaven when I saw you."
 "Oh well, men will be men I guess. Anyway, how are you feeling now?"
 "I don't think anything is wrong with me. I feel fine."
Well then I guess you can get up and go for a checkup then!"
 "OW! My poor stomach! It hurts!"
 "Now don't be a baby and come with me."
 "OK, OK, but first tell me your name."
 "Well, if it will make you get out of that bed, it's Ann."
 "That did the trick! Just hearing your name cured all my pains!"
 "That was something new, but I am still not impressed."
 Damn woman! Oh well I guess I could walk around and see how everything looks. As we walked down the corridors I saw a lot of people and they all were beautiful, well, the girls anyway. "Ahh, this is quite the nice change from my usual nightmares. I wondered how long would this dream continue... But I'd better not burden myself with such bad thoughts and enjoy it while it lasts."
 At the end of one of a hall we stopped and I was asked to go in. inside I saw someone who could only be described as "mother of all seductive nurses". 
 "Please come in."
 "Erm..." was all I could muster.
 "It's a pleasure to meet you too. Please sit down here and take your shirt off."
 I did as I was told and felt how my cheeks started to fill up with red color. But that feeling was soon forgotten for I got to look at my self in the mirror. Taller than I was, slightly tanned, really well-built and with a face that was... perfect.
 After a moments shock I regained my wits and the ability to talk. By that time the doctor was finished with me and said that I was in perfect shape and that I could go home. And that I did.
 After leaving the hospital I nearly snapped my neck trying to see as much as I could in the short time before I woke up. I heard a familiar voice in the distance. It was Kate. Curious as hell to see how she looked now, I dashed towards her voice as fast as I could, but I tripped. I got up and slightly limping went towards her. When I finally reached her I felt a little weary. 
 "HEY! Hold for a moment!"
 "Oh hi Ryu, where... Oh my god! What happened to you leg? It is bleeding."
 "It's nothing, I fell when trying to catch you. It stings a bit but its ok."
 "You should get it cleaned though. Sorry, I need to run now, bye!"
 After she left I suddenly got a nagging feeling in the back of my head that didn't want to leave me alone. After a minute of putting two and two together and getting four and doing some other thinking along the way I stopped dead in my tracks, I was completely baffled by my sudden realization - I felt pain! Everything was too real to be a dream. I went to a chair and sat down to gather my thoughts. After doing some harder thinking than simple equations I came to a couple possibilities: First: I finally lost it and everything was my imagination; Second: I am asleep and this is just a very realistic dream; Third: I had, hopefully, fallen into a different dimension and now am presented with the possibility of living a realm where I finally felt at home. Now that would be something to be happy about. But for now I guess I should just see how does this place look like. First I guess I should go to a drug store and get my leg patched up a bit, then I could go have some dinner, my stomach was growling so loud that I got a little bit embarrassed. I decided to catch a cab so I looked in my pocket for my cell-phone, which was the thing that led me to my next surprise - my phone gone and a little doll was in its place. When I took it out she greeted me and asked what she could do for me. 
 "Don't stare at me like that, master, it's embarrassing!"
 "Sorry, I just spaced out a little." That sounded like a good enough reason to be used in explanation to a talking doll... Maybe I am losing my mind...
 "What can I do for you master," she inquired again.
 "Uhh, could you call for a cab?"
 "YES master!!!... It will be here in two minutes. Can I do anything else for you?"
 "No, thanks."
 The cab arrived and I got in. I asked the driver to take me to a drug store somewhere nearby and made myself comfortable on the back chair.
 The next surprise came when I looked in my wallet to find money to pay for the ride, there was about five or six hundred thousand yen in it! "Any more surprises and I will have to be hospitalized again," I thought to myself.
 After a quick visit to the drug store I went to a nearby bar. The bar was a pleasant surprise, one that didn't leave me with an open mouth for once. It was a bunny-girl bar. With all the money I had I decided I could enjoy myself for once.
 
 It was well after midnight I decided I had had enough for one time and got out of the bar to go home. I pulled my little helper out of my pocket and asked her to call for a cab. When I got into the cab she proved to be quite useful and told the driver where to take me.

    *  *  *

 The creation of something so expansive in my current power will be almost an impossible task and will leave me powerless for many billions of years and for most of them I will not even be able to live... 
 Knocking...

    *  *  *

 "Let me sleep just a little longer!" I was sure that it was Lore who has come to wake me up from my perfect dream. Oh well... "Might as well get up and face the harsh reality."
 I opened my eyes and thought that I was still dreaming - everything was "animated". Then it hit me - IT WAS REAL!!! There were no limits to my joy of this realization. I was so overjoyed that I wanted to hop around and laugh and decided that it is not the worst idea so I did so.
 Apparently my behavior was a little loud and someone came in to see what all the fuss was about. 
 "Is everything all right master?" asked a very lovely young girl.
 "Yes... Umm, who are you?"
 "I am your maid and have been for quite a time. You must have been in the sun too much yesterday, you fell asleep in the taxi and the guards had to carry you to your room."
 "Umm, right. Sorry, my mind is a little fuzzy."
 I must say that when the maid said about me knowing her for a while and I couldn"t remember her I was rather tempted to say something along the lines of "Sin... toxins..." That brought a little smile on my face.
 "No need to apologize master."
 "Right... could I have some breakfast?"
 "Should I bring it to your bed or will you come to the dining room?"
 "I'll go to the dining room I guess. Could you hand me some clothes while you're here?"
 "Yes master."
 
 I couldn't understand why but my heart hurt looking at the maid as if I had known her in the past. But I couldn't remember it hurt so much.

 Breakfast was yet another surprise - all that was on the table was a bottle with no label and some red liquid in it. I guess I am supposed to be on a diet...
 After the breakfast I called for the lovely maid.
 "I'm sorry, but my memory is still a bit fuzzy, could you say your name again?"
 "I's Aisha."
 Another pang of pain ran through my heart and quickly spread throughout my body after hearing that name. "Who is she?" "Right, Aisha. From now on could you call me Ryu and I will call you Aisha. Would that be OK with you?"
 "Yes... Ryu"
 "Now that that is understood could you refresh my memory a bit " did I have any special plans for today?"
 "Nothing really special. Only that that at three a rookie will come by to receive some special training."
 "A rookie??"
 "Yes Ryu, training on the use of advanced arms."
 "And where did nuclear bomb disarming on an actual nuke go?"
 "That's for tomorrow's training."
 "Great! So now I am a weapons expert, a trainer and a rich guy... well, things will get a little interesting soon." I let myself slip under the table and sat there for a while. "This is definitely going to be one hell of a day!"

    *  *  *

 "Hello, my name is Oni. Please look after me."
 "Well, Oni, I hope you will live up to your name today."
 In the basement I was awaited by yet another surprise - it was huge! I couldn't even make out the far end though the light was on and my eyesight was much better than in the real world. 
 "What do you have to do today? As in have you some sort of a plan?"
 "Why, yes. Today I am supposed to pass my light and medium weaponry proficiency test with you as my supervisor."
 "Right, OK." "Aisha, could you come down here for a moment and show this guy where he might prepare for the test?" I asked through the intercom.
 "In a moment Ryu."
 When Aisha came down she escorted us to the east wall of the "basement". When Oni got to the weapons locker I turned to Aisha, "Could you help me out a little here? Something seems not quite fine with my head today."
 "Yes, Ryu. And I do believe that you just spent too much time in the sun yesterday."
 "OK, anyway, could you help me evaluating this guy's performance?"
 "Well, that is a surprise! My teacher wants me to help him!"
 "I guess so. So will you do it? Afterwards I promise to take you out to dinner to some very nice place if you do."
 "Well, if that's the deal then OK."

 Soon after Oni began I realized that I understood how and what had to be done and how everything worked as if it was some sort of knowledge that I had somewhere in my head all along. Oni did quite well and I didn't have much to say to him but "well done".

    *  *  *

 At nine o'clock I felt that surprises will just keep on coming. 
 "Aisha your ears!"
 "Nya? Anything wrong with them?"
 "No, you look fantastic!" Now I understand what was so familiar about Aisha - she was a ctarl-ctarl! And she looked simply fabulous. I didn"t realize this earlier because she was wearing the maid's uniform which concealed her pointy cat-ears. And I suddenly remembered who she was. She is my only love - I fell in love with her five years ago but it only hurt me because I couldn't reach up to her, I couldn't be near her...
 "So shall we get going, or are you going to stare at me for the rest of the evening?"
 "Oh, I"m sorry, let"s go."

    *  *  *

 "I never would have guessed how much can you eat... but I guess that is what I get for asking a ctarl-ctarl out to dinner."
"It is not polite to point out how much a woman eats you know!"
"Sorry... anyway what is with this food? I knew western food was not as good as Japanese but never did I think it would be so blank!"
 "Well, that is what you get for being a vampire I guess..."
 "A what???"
 "A vampire. What did you do to yourself yesterday?"
 "Oh, never mind. I just am a little out of it."
 "Anyway, this was a nice thought of yours to bring me to such a lovely place."
 "You're welcome. Excuse me for a moment."

 "I can't believe this! I am a vampire! This all is just too much like fragments of my wishes and dreams put together! I wouldn't be surprised if someone from GRO visited me and I just forgot. I have to sit down for a moment and gather all my thoughts. I'm in a world that is my vision of a perfect world, I'm rich, I know a lot of things that I didn't, my body is much better than it used to be, I'm a semi-daywalking vampire and I am high-ranked in some military or such organization. It is as if my wishes have shaped this world..." The lavatory's walls suddenly seemed weird and an uneasy feeling came over me
 "Uggh... I think I am not supposed to eat normal food anymore - I feel terrible." Suddenly the lights seemed to dim...